I’m 17. even im young but im surfen in this life nobody understand me no one love me. even the boy that i always thought he will be here for me me he leave me ; my life is a beg mess nobody ever seems to care now i need some addvice to keep living in this fuking live wtf

well i write i this journal and i lost it but someone found the journal and read the whole thing .i mean everything it had who i liked and who i hated and everything i hate my fckin life

ight so i found this guy in india to supply me wit mass supply of ketamine for cheap and i have this shit sold without even having in my hands the only prob is my fam holds me back they say go back to school which i am goin to do when i get me money right and im not talkin bout couple thousand here or there im talkin big like set for life big easily 7 figures a year big but i need to get at least 3 pagages before i can make the big bucks and they think its crazy ima get caught but im not worred bout it cause i have plenty of outs dude to the fact that ive been selling for years and i am a true business man by heart but u might be thinking wow ur stupid or haha yah right or this kid is a joke but ive and where is the shitty life part commin in well my life dose suck i have been in and outta placement cause my parents are crack heads and cant support me i was taken away from them when i was 2 and i only met my dad like 4 times no joke and i have had to take care of myself my whole life i was cookin my own food when i was 7 but now that im 19 i have a plane to have me and my girl set for life and i want to show her what i missed out on in life and college i will do for back up but for real college will not get u over 2.4 million a year while sittin on ur couch unless u own a business that u are the ceo of and even then u have to wait a numerus amount of years and hard work this is here right now and i will have prolly a good section of the country eating outta my hands cause i know may people that want the stuff and i have people willin to work for me if i pay em 5000 a week and md my family is trying to help me they say but if they are helping me then y do they treat me like im a piece of shit dumb ass none of them went to college and i bet im smarter then all of them easy but they still think that they know everything like even if it comes down to growing plants ive been working with plant my whole life and they still think that they know every thing there is to grow veg. and flowers but what do i know i only prolly could be a botanist if i really wanted that how long ive been doin this shit but whatever thank u for reading and please leave a comment so i can refer back and have some idea on what i should do thank u

my sissy x-husby wont see his drinking prob. He acts like a big baby and hangs up and wont talk like an adult. His fam sees he has gone down hill and is a jerk. My cat is walking around puking up blood. My driveway is all mud so I cant get out. My vehicle is stuck. My life is SUCKS!

Im 18,I dont have many friends no girlfriend for 4 years.they all cheat on me with my freinds because im kinda scared of sex but i want it so bad? they want it but i dnt give it to them.i have no feelings anymore i dont like to do much of anything activity wise any more i just really feel like there is a hole n me and no matter what i do i can fill it if its drugs or crime or even working but nothing works and i probably dont help that my parents dont seem to care nobody ever seems to care its almost like nobody seems to even hear me WTF

Today, my boyfriend and I were kissing in my room. My father walked past the window with an axe in the hand. Five times. VDM

So I am engaged to a boy. We have been engaged since Christmas eve… But every time I think of getting married to him I think of all the shit we have been through. Well a few months ago I went through his cell. I know its fucked up but I found very disturbing texts. To top it all off it was to my best friend… Well that night after reading them I didn’t tell my fiancé. I played the day off like it was all ok. Than that night i called up my ex friend flipping out. I tolled her to text him saying that she showed me them. Than things got ugly. I asked him about them and he lied. Him not knowing that I read every single one with my own eyes on his phone. He lied and said he didn’t say those things. He still doesn’t know I read them off his phone and i don’t know how to tell him. He said I shouldn’t be going through his shit. Well I am fed up with living this lie everyday. Everytime I see him I just want to tell him… So he can break up with me… DOes it make me a bad person? Should I not of went through his phone? I don’t even know anymore… I don’t even know if I truly love him anymore… What do I do… please someone help me out… FML

I’ve been with my boyfriend for almost 2 and1/2 years and its been amazing until a month ago. He stopped telling me everything that went on with him and his friends and then he is just changing. He doesnt want biological children with me when the only thing that I want is biological children with him. Then today he asked me what I would do if he switched into a collage in texas which is atleast 2000 miles away from here. Then he also doesn’t treat me the same he is an ass when were on the phone or about the little things it just sucks because he isn’t the same and i miss how it was.