So like most of you, my life’s circumstances stung. i had a short moment of frustration. i typed viciously into google ‘fuck my fucking life’. I stared innocently at the page, in a childish manner, as if somehow, Google would miraculously understand me and show me the point of life. Of course it wouldn’t. Of course it didn’t. That colourful google logo just watched me, in a serene indifference. I scanned the blue links. i clicked. it led me here. to this site.

Good god what a place. Full of deeply depressed, pained and hurt people. So frustrated, so pain stricken that their emotions over power them completely. they can’t even spell or write properly .
People, who, would truly make life worse if you were around them.

This place stinks of self pity. Self pity is what has nearly destroyed your lives. I don’t accuse you. you are lost. But you never try to find your way out. your responsible for your existence. It is, in fact, your fault. But beating yourself up is going to do nothing. This place makes me ashamed to be depressed. I’m going to work hard to get out of my slump. Otherwise, i’ll just waste life like you people.

i just created my account and forgot my password for this account and my email adress

so I’ve had this girlfriend for about 1 and a half year. we’ve been throug almost everything. mostly things she did. she never really trust me and she’s been cheating on me to times. the first time i found out while i was with a very close friend of mine who really helped me a lot. but last night i was all alone when she told over text message and half past one in the night i was down at the harbor just running to forget my pain. i ran and i ran for as fast as i could until my legs just died beneath me and i fell smashing my face down on the concrete and i lied there for about half an our just screaming towards the sky while hammering my face at the concrete bleeding and crying to try and get the pain away from my heart. but everything ells but my heart was numb and as i lied there crying i didn’t really care about the people walking by. i just ignored them screaming at the sky for help and i just can’t take anymore my life is so falling apart and my exams in school starts tomorrow and all i can think of is desperately trying to figure out why i should bother keeping living. no one cares about me. i have only one real friend only one who cares about how i feel

On my birthday i got dump by the gut that i had been dating for 8 years i just couldint belive that he broke up with me on my birth day what the hell is his problem? well then i just started talking to a very old friend of mine and i told him that my ex and i broke up over 4 yrs ago and the truth is that he was the firt prson whom i had a crush on and i guess i never got over him. and on the other hand i have another 2 guys aking me out on the side plus i have been having sex with another one and the truth is that i am so confussed i dont know what to do because my ex told me that he wants to get back with me and is ready to make a life with me i dont know what to do

Okay, first of all, my hip is screwed up. I’m 17, and my HIP us giving me tons of trouble! When does that happen to teenagers! And it’s not even from an injury. It came out of nowhere, and now my life is going down the drain. I had to miss almost all of my junior year because I can’t sit in a chair, and I had missed 10 weeks of school before they would let me sign up for homebound. Then, my teachers gave me 10 weeks of work, all at once. I was so overwhelmed that I ended up having to drop some of my classes so I could pass some of them. And the doctor’s won’t tell me what’s wrong. They tell me I have a tear in the cartilage and go into fix it, and then find out I have severe cartilage loss. And even when they fixed the tear, they can’t tell me why I’m still in a massive amount of pain, saing that cartilage loss shouldn’t be causing this much. It’s gotten to the point where they have flown me from NC to St. Louis to go to a specialist. But it’s a pain and really inconvenient to have to fly out for every little thing. They had me fly out Once for just one MRI. Thank god it’s a non profit hospital because our medical bills and travel expensive would’ve cleaned us out.

But you know what sucks the most? This has been going on for a year and a half, and no one can give me a straight answer on what is causing me pain and what we can do to fix this. And guess what…right before my hip problem popped up, my ankle was horribly sprained for the third time. I’ve been limping and on crutches for two years.

Bit it’s also ruined my sports and music career. I had to stop playing softball and field hockey because I’ve been out for two years. And I can’t play piano or violin seriously because it causes me pain to sit or stand for too long.

I don’t even know if I will be able to graduate with as much school as I have been missing, or even go to college if I do graduate. Sure, I dont have it as bad as others, and am thankful that it’s not a disease or permanently crippling. But I just wish that this could have happened when I was younger, or much older. I at a stressful and difficult point in my life, and all of these injuries are just making things harder. ‘sigh’ the only thing I can do is pray and wait for the doctors to decide what surgery they will use to fix my problem.

My life sucks huh?

Today I came to this site hoping to find that I am not alone. All that I have found is a website full of people who never learned to spell or communicate at all. Fuck my life.

My life has been annoying me for quite long amount of time. However recently i just can’t stand

it. I started crying during seeing my boyfriend at his home (because of the topic we had talked

about, but it doesn’t matter now). I always though crying as a symbol of the gratest failure

and has hated myself when crying since i was a small child. I always wanted to be strong and

never let myself behave like this. So then i felt really cheap. To be worse, couldn’t pull

myself together. Not being able to controll my own emotions made me feel humilated. And i

really knew (even if wanted to forget) it wasn’t the first time, what made me think what an

idiot i am. My boyfriend missunderstood me – tthough i was just mean and did it advisedly or

sth like that. He was angry but i wasn’t able to tell the truth, because i was crying and

couldn’t stop. I don’t understand it all. There should have been another, i should have been

another… I hate myself and my fucking life.

Ive been with this girl about 10 months, and 4 months in a serious relationship. We are very independent about each other, bonderies, etc. She says she loves me… anyway we dont mix up our friends and when she hang out with her friends she never call me and i want to her miss me like i do…. maybe she got better things in her mind, i think is time to me break up.
My fucking life