So, let me start with telling a part of my life first.
Ive always been different,
don’t get me wrong
When i was in primary school I had lots of friends, i looked like a nerd i wasnt social and i was interested in science and history. What fucking kid should wants to be friends with me ? In one of other way there were, so all good till then. I joined a sportclub when i was about 12, i went to highschool and from hen everything went straight down.
I started to realize that the society isn’t what it looks like. I started to realize how life really worked. Once I was 14 the only thing I was doing is looking up information about philosophy and debating on forums.
I talked every christian muslim or whatever under the table in religious debates. But my grades went bad, I stopped sport I lost all my interests in everything except the philosophy. My sleep patron was fucked, I always had troubles with my parents and I started smoking. Looks like the normal teenage life right?
No, It was much deeper, I hated everything including myself, I knew something wasn’t right.
I found out that I had a few disorders. Concluded depression. It wasn’t really a surprise but whatever. It kept going down with me, I went to bed in the morning so I could sit outside at night, I listened to depressing music cuz i found my feeling in it, i started cutting myself, got kicked of school, I didn’t care for anything anymore. When I was about 16 and half I discovered the speaker David Icke, starting from him I looked farder for more and more information about the new world order. With my philosophic knowledge Its not really hard to conclude what the real truths are. This made me even more depressive. But I started hacking websites, firs for knowledge but with the goal for a higher force… knowledge of what normal people don’t know. The 99% of the world that is brainwashed and believes the media and governement.
I reached my goal and obtained much information, togheter with some other people i met online who shared the same minds.
I already had my plans ready, I was going to rebel heavy around where I live, and commit suicide, but then the egyptian revolution started. I started folowing these and folowed the links with the information about the new world order and total control by a small rich part over the big part. Us.
I see that more and more people are getting awake but once people will know whats really happening around them they will be chipped puppets in the perfect society.
I don’t want to live in such a world
I don’t want to live in a world full of hate and suffering.
I dont want to live this life.
Till today im working my ass of for some money,
soon i’m going to travel to south africa.
Going to spent my money to be happy once in my miserable life. Everyone has a miserable life but if u don’t realize that u are simply brainwashed.
Once my money is gone I will jump of a mountain with my last cig in my mouth and my favorite song in my ears.
I will enter “nothing” be “nothing” all i want.

Dont try it to be happy, don’t believe if people say it will ever get better. It wont. Once u realized how much life actually sucks it’s for the rest of your life. I can’t remember a day that I didn’t say to myself fuck life, i want to die. just let me go world.

Wanted to share this, with someone, so at least some one knows my story.
RandQm, 18yrs old

They say there are two types of people, the cool (social people) and the nerds (losers)….I guess you all know why im here, yes, i am a nerd….Some people were born lucky and some weren’t. All i just wish is to be one of the cool boys like Zac affron or well any social people. But my looks is just obviously like a nerd. i wish im handsome , rich and talkative. But my luck isn’t just enough to be like you all lucky ppl. T.T ….I tried everything, smoke cigarettes, change hairstyle, use acne cream, wear cool clothes, i even bought a Ninja yamaha 6X i collected money for a YEAR!!! Fuck! still the same, it became worse. If all u cool ppl sympathy for me, thank you. But if not, then Fuck U Asshole!….FUCK MY GODDAMN LIFE!!!!!!
If u have any advice, please, i mean PLEASE!! i need many advice. My heart is just empty, my life is like a living hell. All i want, is to be accepted by society and live a normal life. T.T Fuck the society! Fuck My Life!!!

I fucking hate my life. I hate yours too. Life is fucking over-fucking-rated. I have no fucking job, no fucking girlfriends, no fucking friends, no fucking money, and no fucking hope of achieving any of that shit.

I fucking hate America and this bitch-ass employment system we have. I have applied to literally thousands of jobs over the last few months and NOTHING has fucking panned. I rarely get a response from these punk-bitch-ass employers, and when I do, its always the same fuck-ass line. ” I’m sorry but you do not match our criteria, we will contact you as soon as we find suitable options: its either that or some similar rendition of it. OK I know I may not have a lot of experience, seeing as I am in school, but SHIT! How the fuck is a person supposed to get any kind of fucking experience when no one ever gives a person the fucking chance to gain that experience! From here on out if i EVER get another one of those no-reply responses they’re going to get a big FUCK YOU and problem a jpeg of my ass to kiss or of my 9 inch dick to suck and nut on their eyeballs so much it oozes out of their nostrils.

What the FUCK is a friend? Everybody I see is pretend. Yeah fuck everybody who considers me their friend. You all are a pack of fuck-eyed ass monkeys that only ever text or call a brother just to :
1) Bitch and moan about your problems, like I don’t have my own
2) Get a fucking laugh, like my profession is to be YOUR fucking entertainment. ” But you always know how to cheer us up!” FUCK THAT and FUCK YOU! I am not trying to make you laugh, I’m just trying to convey a point to you but all you can do is laugh. Its a fucking insult to me. Long gone are the days of the class-clown me, who actually had the fucking faith and hope to succeed in this country.
3) Oh yes there’s a three. The fucking friends who always want something from me. I barely have anything to call my own, but the only time you pick up the phone to call a brotha, you want want something to tide you over until you get paid again. FUCK YOU.. I’m not saying no because i care about you, Im saying No because I dont like you.

AHH. Girlfriends…or lack there of. I have had plenty of girlfriends in the past and I have come to the realization that, as luck would have it : ‘Bitches Ain’t Shit’. Not just the girls I’ve dated and had the opportunity to fuck, but ALL women are bitches and bitches ain’t shit…nuff said.

Thats my fucking rant for today, and rest assured this isn’t the last.
BYE Bitches, i hope you all suffer when you die.

Where do I start…
I was borned in Philippines in 1995 and lived a poor but a very happy life with my relatives and my dear mum. My American father left my mum before I was born so I’ve never seen him in my life and I’m 16.

Another man came to our street and fell in love with my mum once again. They got together and married and he becamed my step father.
In 2003 we moved to Australia to live with my new dad, I was sad to leave my home and my friends, relatives etc. But I had no choice.

Now, ever since I moved here. My life has sucked dramatically. I’ve even been to counselling coz I’m depressed 24/7 and it’s all thanks to my ignorant, fun – depleting little faggot dad. He has made my life so bad that I want to run away sometimes or even kill myself. He has squeezed everything out of me and expects me to be good at school and do things for the future that I never want do.

Every single day I’m scared of him and avoid him as much as I can.

We went to Philippines for a holiday. And Boy was it nothing like I imagined. Every second I spent there my heart had wings and it literally felt like my problems just vanished. I was addicted to this drug called “happiness” and I felt like I belonged for once in my life. My flame inside me has long been extinguished but it was bright as ever.

We returned to Australia and instantly my happiness dissappeared. I hate my life so much I just want to run away back to Philippines once I’m legal. Idc if I’m poor at least I’m away from him and that I am happy. So many years of pain and anguish. I cry myself to sleep every night hoping to wake up in my old room back in Phillipines.. But never happens.. My dreams don’t come true… Not while I’m here.

the ever so often problem. my girlfriend dumped me. over text message. in the ten minutes we wrote she managed to brake my heart. crush my hopes and destroy all reason for life at all. i will never love anyone as much as i loved her. i won’t ever be able to feel again, since it happened i have been crying constantly, not a soul have noticed and im at school.
no friends
no love
no life. no nothing at all. i just want to end it all and make the pain stop. i just want to rest in peace. i haven’t felt peace for months now my life have always been about her and now that shes gone forever i think im gonna die by myself before i get to jump in front of a train or however i wanna go

One Thursday night I went out with some friends. I was in a bar when my boyfriend text me saying he was going out as well.
My city isn’t that big so a few minutes later I saw a car stopping in a red light and my boyfriend was the one seating in the front seat, next to the driver. I went there with a friend (male friend) who my boyfriend doesn’t really like, but I didn’t even thought about it, I was all drunky and happy.
My friend and I start singing and dancing next to the car and my boyfriend was doing signs with his hands, trying to tell me to stop. There was some other guys in the backseats who weren’t really happy as well and I didn’t understand why. I imagined they just didn’t liked the guy.
The light turned green so the car was already moving when I threw myself into the window to my boyfriend’s lap (the car had to stop obviously) and said, well, I screamed “WHY ARE YOU GUYS SO BORED?? I THINK YOU NEED SOME ALCOHOL!! DRINK IT UP!!” and I gave my boyfriend a huge cup of vodka. Unexpectedly, he didn’t want to drink it! That was strange, he never refused a free drink. I insisted A LOT, called him a baby, and he was still saying no. So I put the straw right into his mouth and said ‘Drink it or there will be no sex later’ and then start laughing. Not in an ordinary way, no, I had to do the spooky laugh and then I started to hiccup. Like this: muahahahahah hip hip hip. It was really funny.
A few seconds later, I saw who the driver was: HIS MOTHER! My whole body and face just stopped. I was frightened. I mean, I am a good girl. I am in medical shcool, I study a lot, I give my seat to other people in the bus etc but I know all that crap will never matter no my boyfriend’s mum; not when the first time she saw me I was drunk, in the middle of the streat, alone with a guy her son doesn’t like and I blackmailed his loving child into drinking alcohol otherwise there would be no sex. Jesus. It happened two years ago and I still avoid going to his house when she is there. I hope she will tell a good joke about this in our wedding and we will laugh about it, but until then … x)

P.S.: needless to say, that was until now the most effective way I found to stop hiccups.

Im a gay teenager (17) Im nearly finished school and i have always planned to move away and go after guys but Im just after getting back from sucking off a guy and i feel like shit I didn’t know him or Love him and i feel like no one will ever love me and I have a drinking problem, anytime i feel nervous or out of my comfort zone I drink till my feelings are numbed down, I wish I was straight and I could just fall in love with a young girl my age and not go off with ugly old men its so fucked up!! like why would God make me Gay! why is my brain programmed this way! I just wan2 fade away into a fake world through drugs, plus school is shit I cant study and failed all my Christmas tests, the results will prob be here in 2 hours and I havent slept! Ahh an my Da is a Dickhead!! FML

So like most of you, my life’s circumstances stung. i had a short moment of frustration. i typed viciously into google ‘fuck my fucking life’. I stared innocently at the page, in a childish manner, as if somehow, Google would miraculously understand me and show me the point of life. Of course it wouldn’t. Of course it didn’t. That colourful google logo just watched me, in a serene indifference. I scanned the blue links. i clicked. it led me here. to this site.

Good god what a place. Full of deeply depressed, pained and hurt people. So frustrated, so pain stricken that their emotions over power them completely. they can’t even spell or write properly .
People, who, would truly make life worse if you were around them.

This place stinks of self pity. Self pity is what has nearly destroyed your lives. I don’t accuse you. you are lost. But you never try to find your way out. your responsible for your existence. It is, in fact, your fault. But beating yourself up is going to do nothing. This place makes me ashamed to be depressed. I’m going to work hard to get out of my slump. Otherwise, i’ll just waste life like you people.