I think about suicide for most of the time I am awake.
I try to hide the fact that I got no friends, but it seems blatantly obvious to everybody at work and my so called family, which is totally humiliating especially when they start making comments.

My job is shit and I even think about suicide at work. I spend all my free time alone, talking to myself as I got nobody else to talk to. But I hate myself so most of my conversations (with myself) are usually abusive and self-deprecating. Never been to a mental institution and never want to go either – I know the limits of my fucked up mind, I don’t want any more humiliation associated with getting mental help as I am in self denial about my issues.

When I am around people I pretend to be normal, though I hardly talk to anybody, I can’t even seem to make small talk. I never had a girlfriend. Feel so alone. Never had any true friends either!

I want to die. I really want to do something useful to be remembered by before I die though. My 20′s have been such a disappointment – I am going to be 30 soon so I think it is best to die before then.

How bout this my bf is 24 just turned 24 n has 5 kids lol. Fucking really. Yeah I know i knew it when we started talking. There was only 4 now there is five. I was preg when we first got together and was pressured in to an abortion. Well the new kids comes into the pic and I say give up his rights. But nope sure don’t. And will not. Can’t even talk about it. I am way to damn beautiful to deal with this. 5 kids and worked at a fast food. Wtf was I thinkking

I DONT WANNA GO ON VACATION FOR 3 WEEKS WITH MY ANNOYING ASS FAMILY ITS GONNA BE FUCKING HELL I WANT TO BE WITH MY FRIENDS :/

Six months ago, me and all my best friends , julie chan , naomi , charles planned to celebrate new year’s count down at julie’s villa beside a heavenly beach and far from large cities. Charles even bought fireworks and barbecue set. Everyday I imagine the event and it totally made me excited. But SUDDENfuckingLY! 2 days before the event my uncle already bought a goddamn ticket to sarawak for me! FUCKLA! I missed the fucking event that we planned for 3 goddamn months! I wasted my fucking time forced to fuck fishing at sarawak! Bloody fucking hell! The night of the countdown im stuck at a fuck hotel! He was fucking sleeping! And all I imagine is my friends at the villa! It fucking hurts my fuckfeelings! Do you all know how it feels like to celebrate new year in a goddamn hotel room with the lights switched off and ur uncle snorring? FUCK SYAITAN! 2010 is my final school year and wasted for nothing! FUCK! I was forced to go! All my family forced me since the ticket is bought without asking me! They fucking know that I have plans! FUCK MY LIFE! Then when I got back home, I start smashing drinking glasses, burning mom’s fav magazines, playing BMTH songs with high volume speaker and sleepover at charle’s place. I like to advice to all u ppl if ur life is also fuck. Listen to ‘Bring Me The Horizon’ songs.

My ex-gf was fuckin a guy for the about 9 months and guy was a friend too. Now she fuckin says she loves me? fml and fuck their life

the other night me and my girlfriend had sex in a church parking lot. because my whole family was home for Christmas, so Christmas night we decided to have sex in her car. so we rolled up to the neighborhood church. in the middle of her orgasm she said “OH jesus!”
the worst part is. her family pulled up the the parking spot where i tossed out the rubber the next morning. sorry babe. fml

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I fucking hate my life. I hate yours too. Life is fucking over-fucking-rated. I have no fucking job, no fucking girlfriends, no fucking friends, no fucking money, and no fucking hope of achieving any of that shit.

I fucking hate America and this bitch-ass employment system we have. I have applied to literally thousands of jobs over the last few months and NOTHING has fucking panned. I rarely get a response from these punk-bitch-ass employers, and when I do, its always the same fuck-ass line. ” I’m sorry but you do not match our criteria, we will contact you as soon as we find suitable options: its either that or some similar rendition of it. OK I know I may not have a lot of experience, seeing as I am in school, but SHIT! How the fuck is a person supposed to get any kind of fucking experience when no one ever gives a person the fucking chance to gain that experience! From here on out if i EVER get another one of those no-reply responses they’re going to get a big FUCK YOU and problem a jpeg of my ass to kiss or of my 9 inch dick to suck and nut on their eyeballs so much it oozes out of their nostrils.

What the FUCK is a friend? Everybody I see is pretend. Yeah fuck everybody who considers me their friend. You all are a pack of fuck-eyed ass monkeys that only ever text or call a brother just to :
1) Bitch and moan about your problems, like I don’t have my own
2) Get a fucking laugh, like my profession is to be YOUR fucking entertainment. ” But you always know how to cheer us up!” FUCK THAT and FUCK YOU! I am not trying to make you laugh, I’m just trying to convey a point to you but all you can do is laugh. Its a fucking insult to me. Long gone are the days of the class-clown me, who actually had the fucking faith and hope to succeed in this country.
3) Oh yes there’s a three. The fucking friends who always want something from me. I barely have anything to call my own, but the only time you pick up the phone to call a brotha, you want want something to tide you over until you get paid again. FUCK YOU.. I’m not saying no because i care about you, Im saying No because I dont like you.

AHH. Girlfriends…or lack there of. I have had plenty of girlfriends in the past and I have come to the realization that, as luck would have it : ‘Bitches Ain’t Shit’. Not just the girls I’ve dated and had the opportunity to fuck, but ALL women are bitches and bitches ain’t shit…nuff said.

Thats my fucking rant for today, and rest assured this isn’t the last.
BYE Bitches, i hope you all suffer when you die.