I just found out my girlfriend slept with her best friend on christmas 
I met this girl at work, and we went out on a few dates. I planned to ask her out on Christmas, but the last day I saw her was on December 23rd. She won’t call me back or answer her phone. I miss her and feel empty without her. I really miss her, I thought she was the one, guess I was wrong.
i just got my drivers license but i still cant fuckin drive because ive got no insurance, i hate brown fucking people because they take their sweet as time doing our fucking work me PAY their bitch asses for but noooo. my dad just doesnt fuckin learn not to do business with fuckin brown people. fuck those motherfuckers who fuck while we pay them to do our work. fuck their lives. RFUCKKCKCKKCKCk
I’m a little different.
To start, I am fifteen years old, a nineth grader, and male.
You see, I’ve gotten used to the fact that I don’t have too many offline friends. I have never had a girlfriend. Never did anything that got me outta the background. ‘I’m stupid, I’m useless, I can’t do anything right…’
The digital world is my friend. I’m anonymous. I can laugh. I can smile. I can have friends. I can listen to music. Not get hassled. Tripped. Told that I’m a hoe, etc.
I can have fun.
And my parents encourage me to make some real friends. The one time I actually try, I get grounded for what I did; talk in class and get in ‘trouble’ for it.
That cemented my belief that the ‘Net was the best place for me, along with things like my iPod. Games and chatting were my escape.
So because my grades slipped a little bit, my parents are taking away my freedom, one by one.
I am no longer allowed to watch Television, though I don’t really care about that.
My iPod has been shipped to the U.S. And I live on the other side of the world.
I can’t play games on my DS, or PS3.
I’m being isolated from the few friends I have at school, via a phone call about seat-changing.
And my computer is the last thing I have. When I had everything, I barely spent time on the computer. Now, it’s the only thing keeping me going.
It is the last barrier between me and madness. What other things I can do? Reading, writing, and drawing. I can’t do the first; I’ve already read all the books we have at home. Not the second or third, I prefer to type over writing, and since my mom searches my drawings and writings out and reads over ‘em, I’d decided I didn’t want to do it again.
As I have stated before. The computer is the only thing I have that’s keeping me going.
They constantly change the password on the net adapter so I have to BEG for it.
They steal my laptop’s charger so that I can’t use my computer all the time.
They frequently threaten to clear out my harddrive.
So, explain to me, how parents are caring?
I’ve already considered the knife.
Family ain’t no help at all. I ask for this, for that. But naw, i can’t get shit. My dad fucking cut off the cable. No FIRST, it was my fucking cellphone. Which WAS my life. Then i lose my damn itouch. Fucking, then he cut off my cable. Man, this is fucking ridiculous ! & to top it off, i’m failing school. I’m about to be a high school drop out cause of them. These sluts at the house cut me off for life. I don’t give a fuck anymore. FUCK MY LIFE.
So, just checked my bank account just to see they’ve took money off it. For fucks sake, how am I going to manage now. My next payment won’t be until the 15th of february, i’m completly broke atm got 2 (euro’s) left and I need to pay for public transportation because those bastards from a certain company haven’t send my free traveling card for students yet.
I can’t go to my internship tomorrow now, but I can’t call in sick :S I just got better from being sick for a week. Sigh.. off to bed with the alarm on knowing I actually can’t afford my bus tomorrow .. @my fucking life.
Today, when i was gonna read my two favorite blogs, i saw that a stupid ass mofo guy had left a comment at one of my bloggers page. I was a little angry from before also. He had wrote a “burn”, telling her (the blogger) to grow up and act more “adulting”. The idiot had 13 spell mistakes in 14 words. Fuck my life…
