im reading all of these stories sayng how there gf wouldnt fuck em in the car or some bs like that. a gf is the last thing on my mind and the last thing ill ever have. people around me just dont notice me until i mess upp. il be in a conversation with someone and they will just walk off and have know idea i was talking to them. this happens to me with people who are in there 40s and 50s. im not shy or akward, some people think im funny and im not the person who cant talk to people. people just forget im even their until they need someone to sit and listen to their probs wit their 3 friends wit benifits and there gf.FML also my sistr is moving her room after getting 10k of new furniture. then my dad gets mad at me because i am on the comp after im supposed to be because i got a c on my report card and 3 b’s. i also bought a 100 dollar airsoft gun to try to lighten up my life a little bit with my own money and my dad said i get everything i want. I GET NOTHING UNLESS I PAY FOR IT! i havent even asked for money from any1 since i was in 2nd grade! FUCK this is all bs and i could go on but i kno no 1 even cares so u all can go fuck ur selvs.

I realy like this chick, and she likes me, but ive been hurt before so im trying to play it cool, but shes says im no fun, and says im too clinging, so i don’t hang much. all i know is, i still have feelings for my ex, but im ready to move on if this immature chick would just give me a time of the fucking day. fml

I hate my life, Ive had every possibility given to me, and i shat on them all. I just recently got arrested for drinking and driving and getting in an accident. I dont do that often, but i feel like my life is now over. I have a criminal record at 18. I only have a High school education, and not a very good one at that. I’m really starting to question my purpose in life. Are we supposed to make enough money to last us till the day we die? Why? It sounds so stupid, but its all we can do. i dont know what to do, my parents want me out of the house, my job at a pizza shop is crap. I’m seriously considering joining the military. I dont know what else to do. Someone, please help me!!!

There is so much crap in my life at the moment so i take comfort in the small things in life. Today i peeled a sticker of my new diary (to fill with depressing stories) and it came off without leaving any residue!!! How awesome is that.

Love the little things

see i am in 7th grade and i am in desperately in love with a girl, i am not sure she loves me too but i can do everything for her , i can`t understand why my heart beats for her and her heart beats against me , why i am willing to give away everything for her and she does`nt cares a fuck about me, sigh , 12 girls proposed me (not the nerdy looser ones) i said no to every one of them for my love and now i think she loves another boy , i am so desperate i am cuttting myself :’( , i wish life would have been a vdo game which had a second life so that i can suicide , start a new life and never meet her again , she crushed my ego , my dreams, my ambitions and threw them like tissue paper

Today a 18yo girl came up to me and told me she didnt know what sex is and asked me to show it to her this weekend. First I thought she was making fun of me but it was most likely true. It could have been my 1st time THIS EASILY if i hadnt turned her down.

In august my four month old infant choked on his spitup while i was home with him and my 3 year old and died without my knowing. when my children’s father came back from work and checked on the boys he found him. I rode in the ambulance with him to the hospital and the paramedics worked on him for hours but he didnt make it. Being in the distraught state of mind i was in i had my uncle take my 3 year old for a bit til i could get things settled down. A week later, 3 days after the funeral my mother called DHS on me and they took my 3 year old from my uncles house. I’m currently fighting to get him back but my lawyer is a court appointed jackass who doesnt give a shit about anything but his paycheck and getting this case over with quickly. my visitation has been cut in half for next week because my uncle wants to see him too. My whole family blames me for what happened except for my dad who has been beside me every step of the way. Today i found out my cats have worms and after dumping hot coffee on myself and jamming my cigarette roller then having my card declined at the gas station when i tried to buy a pack of tailormade cigarettes and having to buy a monster instead, i was walking home and some asshole in a white car decided to hurl a beer bottle at me and yell “Yeah you need to be walking, Fatty!” they were too far away for me to catch the license plate number. Court has been rescheduled for the 11th of this month and i’m behind on my bills because of the court costs and i’m being hounded by debt collectors for unpaid medical bills from my last pregnancy which should have been covered by my medicaid. I wonder what else is going to go wrong. Oh wait, it just started raining. FML.

Just wanted one afternoon to myself,,,daughter and grandson going out. Husband decides to take the day off. Then goes and picks up other daughter so she can do laundry for free. And she brings 2 friends with her.