we’re not even talking anymore.
you don’t talk, and it’s my fault for not talking.
give me a fucking break and do something yourself, for once.

if only i could see you face to face.
long distance relationships, don’t do them if you’re hardly going to see eachother.

you’re right, it may be the end of us.

Life is fucking me each and everyday, i was a bright student in my high school, but my father is a dead drunker, fuck, he sold his property, did no money management, and now have nothing for my education, fuck, what the fuck he was thinking, now he is doing nothing, no job, drinks all the day, so here i’m having no future, no money, no life, no good friend s, don’t know what the god is doing,,,

Fuck nursing schools. I live in California and because of the dick-sucking budget cuts, it is fucking impossible to get in anywhere because they don’t have the goddamn money to pay for shit, because of our stupid-ass government here. So basically this is what happens: you apply to a school that you’d really like to go to, do all their fucking prerequisites (usually about 60 credits worth), bust your fucking ass to get a 4.0, and you will most likely STILL not get accepted. So you haul your goddamn fucking ass to get into a program at a four-year-university, get rejected, and then you’re completely fucked. Nursing schools are so fucked up in that they make you put all your goddamn eggs in one fucking basket so that you bust your ass taking a bunch of science classes like microbiology and organic chemistry and shit, and then they most likely will reject you anyway, even if you have a perfect GPA. So here you are, after all your hard work and you have JACK SHIT to show for it – only the fact that the nursing school shit all over you and your dreams and a bunch of random ass classes that you had to shit out of your brain to get an A in. And it’s not just California, it’s EVERY nursing school that is hard to get into — california is just the most fucked up. So my question is: if there is such a “shortage” of nurses all over the country, then why the FUCK do you make it so fucking impossible to get into your goddamn programs? FUCK YOU!!!!!

Straight to the point. Happiness doesn’t exist in fucking life. Don’t get ur hopes too high. There is very little hope for all of us. There is no son of god. Saviour? come on people, u save urself…….In life, there was never happiness. Learn that word. Fucking thumbs up if u agree.

I think about suicide for most of the time I am awake.
I try to hide the fact that I got no friends, but it seems blatantly obvious to everybody at work and my so called family, which is totally humiliating especially when they start making comments.

My job is shit and I even think about suicide at work. I spend all my free time alone, talking to myself as I got nobody else to talk to. But I hate myself so most of my conversations (with myself) are usually abusive and self-deprecating. Never been to a mental institution and never want to go either – I know the limits of my fucked up mind, I don’t want any more humiliation associated with getting mental help as I am in self denial about my issues.

When I am around people I pretend to be normal, though I hardly talk to anybody, I can’t even seem to make small talk. I never had a girlfriend. Feel so alone. Never had any true friends either!

I want to die. I really want to do something useful to be remembered by before I die though. My 20′s have been such a disappointment – I am going to be 30 soon so I think it is best to die before then.

How bout this my bf is 24 just turned 24 n has 5 kids lol. Fucking really. Yeah I know i knew it when we started talking. There was only 4 now there is five. I was preg when we first got together and was pressured in to an abortion. Well the new kids comes into the pic and I say give up his rights. But nope sure don’t. And will not. Can’t even talk about it. I am way to damn beautiful to deal with this. 5 kids and worked at a fast food. Wtf was I thinkking

I DONT WANNA GO ON VACATION FOR 3 WEEKS WITH MY ANNOYING ASS FAMILY ITS GONNA BE FUCKING HELL I WANT TO BE WITH MY FRIENDS :/

Six months ago, me and all my best friends , julie chan , naomi , charles planned to celebrate new year’s count down at julie’s villa beside a heavenly beach and far from large cities. Charles even bought fireworks and barbecue set. Everyday I imagine the event and it totally made me excited. But SUDDENfuckingLY! 2 days before the event my uncle already bought a goddamn ticket to sarawak for me! FUCKLA! I missed the fucking event that we planned for 3 goddamn months! I wasted my fucking time forced to fuck fishing at sarawak! Bloody fucking hell! The night of the countdown im stuck at a fuck hotel! He was fucking sleeping! And all I imagine is my friends at the villa! It fucking hurts my fuckfeelings! Do you all know how it feels like to celebrate new year in a goddamn hotel room with the lights switched off and ur uncle snorring? FUCK SYAITAN! 2010 is my final school year and wasted for nothing! FUCK! I was forced to go! All my family forced me since the ticket is bought without asking me! They fucking know that I have plans! FUCK MY LIFE! Then when I got back home, I start smashing drinking glasses, burning mom’s fav magazines, playing BMTH songs with high volume speaker and sleepover at charle’s place. I like to advice to all u ppl if ur life is also fuck. Listen to ‘Bring Me The Horizon’ songs.