My dad is a bitch. He thinks he has all the answers to GOD and The Bible. He lets my mom down and disowned my brother and fucking thinks he can push me around. Old people home for you ass!!

You people think you have a shitty family? Live with MINE.
Everyday I wake up and put on clothes, you know, maybe a hoodie and jeans and converse. Nothing too bad, right? Well according to my mom, it is. I walk downstairs and everyday she tells me some variation of ‘you look like a fucking whore’. Great for my self-esteem, right?
On top of that, she won’t feed me anything except peanut butter and cheese because apparently I’m going to ‘get fatter than I already am and die’. I weigh 104 pounds at 5’7″. I’m obviously severely overweight. Not.
To top it all off, she accuses me of being a whore and doing drugs all the time. She’s put me through numerous drug, pregnancy, and STI tests and for some odd reason I’ve passed them all. Maybe because…I’m not a druggie whore! Shocker!
Finally, they don’t buy me anything. When I say that, I mean ANYTHING. As in, oh, I’m sorry, go buy the socks you’ve been needing for 6 months. With the money you don’t have. Great. Or, you pay for dinner. Again, with the money you don’t have. Wonderful. While my mom rules my life, my dad ignores me everyday for mo reason.

And she won’t let me get a fucking job.

Fuck. My. Fucking. Life.

No love
My life is a series of superficial meaningless relationships
No deep connections
No trust
No real love
My parents are self absorbed
They give me a place to stay
That’s about it
My brother and I had a bad childhood
I was a crazy abusive brat
Now he avoids me
Nothing I can do about the past
No friends left from my youth
Just a few superficial connections I’ve made since high school
Nobody really
I spend a lot of time alone
I don’t want to be resigned to it
Sometimes I ask myself what’s the point?
Why am I here?
Just sit too long in front of a computer
Alone too much
Fuck.

so
I decided to try this site
Yay! (sarcasm)
Anyway I had a fight with my mother yesterday mainly cuz me and my brother where messing around and I had a 2 liter bottle of soda.he was messing around while i was about to put the soda away and he lost balance causing me to trip and have the bottle land on him. Like the baby he is (11 year old on steroids I tell you) he began to cry I apologized and then mother came fully blaming it on me and how I don’t love him. How I push him aside for my friends. Then I lost my temper, because that’s so untrue. If I didn’t love him I would never play videogames with him, help him with homework, make him breakfast, or pitched in with my money to help him buy a DSi. Yeah sure I tend to ignore Him from time to time but that’s because he really needs to get more friends that just me and my 7-8 year old cousin. However instead of supplying this evidence I was an idiot and had the word rage all over my head. Then she says I don’t do much around the house. Okay so cleaning my room, waxing the floor, and picking up after my brothers mess + taking care of him isn’t enough gee thanks. Then she says you know when you have no one he’s going to be the only person for you to depend on. My inner mind is just begging to shout I KNOW THIS!! Before I can actually say something meaningful to end this she is like I hate how you don’t seem to care about your family. Wait. Wut. Anger. She continues on and says what are you going to do when your older huh!? I say i don’t know go to collage get a job and live far away from here I mean after that session of our lives we won’t see each other very much. I know I shouldn’t have but I was mad. Then she hit me with the most horrible statement ever. You disappoint me. Wut. I wanted to cry but I bit my tongue to to distract me. Then I left and cried angry tears in my room. It’s almost as if she said oh all those good times we had where false and all those family gatherings where just a façade. Thanks mother. Really thanks. Now I’m sitting in my room hoping I can go over my sisters for fear I punch my brother in the face and blow up at my mother. Again. Not to mention I would apologize but no not this time her turn she went to far this time. I almost had the silly notion of running away. I only got as far as to packing unreliable luggage and getting dressed. Then I realized it was out of anger and I was being a doucher/idiot. In the end I have a good life and i just need to vent. Not to mention i feel like an attention whore for feeling this way but oh well. My friend said I could on this site I guess.
*sigh
FML

Today i Hade A Arugement With My Aunt & Befor She Got Me ugs For X-Mas And She Took it Away I Was very Upset So She Tells Me Not To Go iN My Other Aunts Room So I Strated Crying And Went In The Bathroom And Threw My Phone And My ipod And Cryed Untill 3:59 I Got Out And Was Still Sad Still Trerin And Crying So On FaceBook On My Staus I Said”WHY DONT i JUST DROP DEAD!!!! iS THATS SO HARD TO ASK FOR?” And I Sat DownOn The Computer And EverytimeSomeone Ask Me What Rong it Hurts So I Start Crying And On Google I Typed Fuck My Life And Found This Site So As I Type Im Hurttin :’(& Thats My Story :’(

Ok. So last night my mother decided to ask me why I have been so bitchy lately. My answer. Well mom I hate living in a motel and how you would rather spend your money on booze and weed rather then getting us out of here. She answers with ” I haven’t been drinking all week” (with alchol smell on her breath) Then she tells me that since we are in this situation we should all help out (we as in my boyfriend and I) I say no because it has been over a year since she and my father had a car and months of living in a motel ( and to try to teach her a lesson and motovate her to do more) Then everytime I bring up a problem and ask her if she had to deal with it she would start crying and talking about herself and something totally different. Like how my boyfriend should bring her to the store since when she was a teen like me my dad drove her dad to boston for chemo because he had cancer. TOTALLY DIFFERENT SITUATIONS. Long story short my mother is a bitch and cares for no one but herself and blames but me(im17)

Today i woke up to my family telling me i am lazy and useless…the normal. my day was spent looking under the tree and realizig NO ONE had remebered me of christmas presents. when i brought this to the attention of my family they all gasped and said; ‘OH MY GOD1 I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT YOU!’ and now, i am sitting in my room-listening to my family laugh and have fun because i refuse to leave the safty of this room. why? because the man of the house just told me to get the fuck out..in responce my mother, sister, brother and boyfriend stayd silent and let me sit and cry.
my brother id finnishing the tree decorating, my mother is making pie with my sister and the man of the house and my BOYFRIEND are looking at cars/car parts online…i, once again, are forgotten….

Today i Hade A Arugement With My Aunt & Befor She Got Me ugs For X-Mas And She Took it Away I Was very Upset So She Tells Me Not To Go iN My Other Aunts Room So I Strated Crying And Went In The Bathroom And Threw My Phone And My ipod And Cryed Untill 3:59 I Got Out And Was Still Sad Still Trerin And Crying So On FaceBook On My Staus I Said”WHY DONT i JUST DROP DEAD!!!! iS THATS SO HARD TO ASK FOR?” And I Sat DownOn The Computer And EverytimeSomeone Ask Me What Rong it Hurts So I Start Crying And On Google I Typed Fuck My Life And Found This Site So As I Type Im Hurttin :’(& Thats My Story :’(