Its really fucking to me to see all of my friends to be happy with their lifes, all got girlfriends, but me after 3 years alone again… I can’t get through so easy. But I will try again… But now. Its really fucking. I hate it soo much. Fuck. Why is the life so hard?

Yesterday my ex-girlfriend called me. We hadn’t talk for around a year or something like this so it was kind of sweat to have this talk and we even agreed to meet in the evening and get lay in memory of the good days. Ok, we actually met later that day and I figured it out that she’s got fat. Fuck my life…

I haven’t told a man I love him for over 10years. After a horrific relationship it took me a long time to start dating again and I was always so guarded that relationships never worked out.
A few months ago, a good male friend declared his feelings for me and, although surprised, I was really happy. I finally felt I’d met a man I could be myself with and possibly even say those three little elusive words to. We’ve had a fantastic few months, I’ve never laughed so much or felt so comfortable with someone. Today he dumped me. On facebook. Its my birthday.

ok in need of opinions…I’ve been in a long distance relationship with this guy going on 4 months.When we first began talking he asked me if i did drugs i said no he said he didn’t either things kept progressing we were doing wonderful learning lots about each other then about a month or so into our relationship he told me he did do drugs and had actually been arrested for it but that he only did weed but actually he was into much much more. So i continued on even though that was a big concern then the next thing was he became very jealous of a friendship i had with a male friend (we are def only friends nothing more) he told me i wasn’t allowed around him anymore. Then there were times he would tell me i couldn’t go out with my friends if i did he would call to check up on me and if i didn’t answer all hell would break loose what did i do i continued on and unfortunately and gave him what he wanted because i really really love this guy and want to be with him. Now for the past month things take a change he is still controlling but all of the sudden he gets secretive he puts me on hold and texts over and over again while were talking and if i ask who it is he tells me not to worry about it more to come if i called he wouldn’t answer my calls if i texted him he wouldn’t text back then around 3 am he would call if i asked why he didn’t answer or respond he would blow up. about a week in a half ago a friend was staying with him his friend was headed to a party with underage kids to drink and smoke weed (my bf and he’s friend are both over 21) my bf is taking his friend to meet up with someone to take him to the party and he told me as soon as he friend was picked up he would call well guess what no call one text 2 hrs later saying he was still waiting i called after the text no answer this continued on throughout the nite finally i’ve had enough i knew he was up to something i sent him a text that i couldn’t take this secretive stuff anymore and that we should move on. late into the nite he calls long story short he begs me to come back but then informs me that because i ended things this girl his known for a while came over to smoke and one thing led to another and they made out but he didn’t cheat ( i now think they were already doing that and that’s why he ignored my calls. Well dumb me takes him back we talk he gonna work on things i’m gonna work on things that bother each other. One great day then whoops it starts again he begins ignoring my calls and texts finally a call in around 1 am this continues for 2 days ignoring secretive texts putting me on hold to take calls blowing up if i ask who it is etc, so i tell him enough if he doesn’t want the relationship just tell me and we can move on, nothing for hours 2 am a call he said i broke up with him again so he hooked up with her this time things go father between them but he wants me back i’m all he could think of while he was with her blah blah blah we decided again to work it out yesterday we talk in the morning then i hear from him around 10 we talk, during that time i find out a few things one he told me he was working early that day for a short time, then he says he worked from 9 am til 9 pm, times passes then he slips and says he slept most of the day, a lil more then he makes this off handed comment that maybe he and her went for a walk on the beach that morning, of course he says he didn’t know why he said that it wasn’t true he didn’t blah blah blah, i go out with friends he insists i call him at 1:30 am, guess what no answer i call several times, still no answer i text no response and still nothing. He tells me i have to trust him but its really hard with all thats happened and alll the secrets. I’m really confused i really can’t help but feel his up to something am i crazy for thinking this? I think he’s playing me and that he’s not willing to end it because even if he doesn’t want me anymore he doesn’t want anyone else to have me. Opinions please……….

ok so there is this guy. me nd him dated before but broke up becuz things stared to change between us.but after we broke up i still loved him ndistill wanna be with him nut idnt think he feels for me….even though me nd him kissed messed around and all tht istill dont think he wants to get back together..me nd him are always flirtying nd always with eachother (even though he has a girlfriend.)it just fhukkin hurts me to knw istill love him and tht he liks to mess wit my head nd jus tease me nd not wanna go back out FML =(

I may be young but i’ve already fallen in love but i’m such a chickenshit that i cant ask her out, yet my love for her is tearing me up inside!

So theres this girl I like and I was chilling with her friend so that she could introduce us, I thought I had been doing every single thing right and was so happy she’s such a nice girl and I really like her. She goes the entire school year without a boyfriend and just as I summon some courage to go and say something to her she gets herself a boyfriend. She even knew I liked her. Similiar shits happend before with another girl I liked where I thoguht I was doing every damn last thing in the world correctly and that I was a ncie guy and treated her right then forces beyond my control kick my head into the ground. Its not fucking fair, how can it be every damn last time? Lifes unfair and I fucking hate it.

Thanks for listening to my rant, cause it won’t change a damn thing!

I am SO in love with my law lecturer. He is about 25 years older than me but I just lose myself in his beautiful eyes. He is so kind and jovial and I just imagine being alone with him all the time. Next week is our last class for the semester and it is the last time I will see him FMLS.