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Why do we choose the wrong..

Lost in pain — Thu, 10 Nov 2011 15:57:35 +0000

I’m in love with this girl. I love her down to my soul, and would do anything for her. But
she continues to shun me, and choose these men who only want her for their own pleasure..they use her, and every time and time again, her heart is broken by these inglorious bastards..every time i see her cry, i cry as well..and she claims that there is no one that loves her. yet there i stand silently..ready to take all the pain…ready to love her PAST her pain. but still she persist. The love i have for her is tearing me apart..yet i can’t seem to let her go Why? why do we always choose what is poison to us? why don’t we look past what is seemingly perfect and chose what we really need? my God..if she would just give me a chance i’d show her a love she’d never felt before. She’d never have to feel pain again..but she continues to punish herself. i only wish i could make her see..that she’d find a purer, truer love, in me.

dating

junior — Tue, 31 May 2011 10:17:04 +0000

am looking or a caring and sexy girl

the typical

who cares — Fri, 27 May 2011 16:09:14 +0000

the ever so often problem. my girlfriend dumped me. over text message. in the ten minutes we wrote she managed to brake my heart. crush my hopes and destroy all reason for life at all. i will never love anyone as much as i loved her. i won’t ever be able to feel again, since it happened i have been crying constantly, not a soul have noticed and im at school.
no friends
no love
no life. no nothing at all. i just want to end it all and make the pain stop. i just want to rest in peace. i haven’t felt peace for months now my life have always been about her and now that shes gone forever i think im gonna die by myself before i get to jump in front of a train or however i wanna go

First Impression

tyra — Sun, 08 May 2011 12:41:14 +0000

One Thursday night I went out with some friends. I was in a bar when my boyfriend text me saying he was going out as well.
My city isn’t that big so a few minutes later I saw a car stopping in a red light and my boyfriend was the one seating in the front seat, next to the driver. I went there with a friend (male friend) who my boyfriend doesn’t really like, but I didn’t even thought about it, I was all drunky and happy.
My friend and I start singing and dancing next to the car and my boyfriend was doing signs with his hands, trying to tell me to stop. There was some other guys in the backseats who weren’t really happy as well and I didn’t understand why. I imagined they just didn’t liked the guy.
The light turned green so the car was already moving when I threw myself into the window to my boyfriend’s lap (the car had to stop obviously) and said, well, I screamed “WHY ARE YOU GUYS SO BORED?? I THINK YOU NEED SOME ALCOHOL!! DRINK IT UP!!” and I gave my boyfriend a huge cup of vodka. Unexpectedly, he didn’t want to drink it! That was strange, he never refused a free drink. I insisted A LOT, called him a baby, and he was still saying no. So I put the straw right into his mouth and said ‘Drink it or there will be no sex later’ and then start laughing. Not in an ordinary way, no, I had to do the spooky laugh and then I started to hiccup. Like this: muahahahahah hip hip hip. It was really funny.
A few seconds later, I saw who the driver was: HIS MOTHER! My whole body and face just stopped. I was frightened. I mean, I am a good girl. I am in medical shcool, I study a lot, I give my seat to other people in the bus etc but I know all that crap will never matter no my boyfriend’s mum; not when the first time she saw me I was drunk, in the middle of the streat, alone with a guy her son doesn’t like and I blackmailed his loving child into drinking alcohol otherwise there would be no sex. Jesus. It happened two years ago and I still avoid going to his house when she is there. I hope she will tell a good joke about this in our wedding and we will laugh about it, but until then … x)

P.S.: needless to say, that was until now the most effective way I found to stop hiccups.

why the fuck am I even trying?

who cares — Tue, 03 May 2011 00:43:55 +0000

so I’ve had this girlfriend for about 1 and a half year. we’ve been throug almost everything. mostly things she did. she never really trust me and she’s been cheating on me to times. the first time i found out while i was with a very close friend of mine who really helped me a lot. but last night i was all alone when she told over text message and half past one in the night i was down at the harbor just running to forget my pain. i ran and i ran for as fast as i could until my legs just died beneath me and i fell smashing my face down on the concrete and i lied there for about half an our just screaming towards the sky while hammering my face at the concrete bleeding and crying to try and get the pain away from my heart. but everything ells but my heart was numb and as i lied there crying i didn’t really care about the people walking by. i just ignored them screaming at the sky for help and i just can’t take anymore my life is so falling apart and my exams in school starts tomorrow and all i can think of is desperately trying to figure out why i should bother keeping living. no one cares about me. i have only one real friend only one who cares about how i feel

Do I love him?

Donna — Thu, 10 Mar 2011 13:54:44 +0000

So I am engaged to a boy. We have been engaged since Christmas eve… But every time I think of getting married to him I think of all the shit we have been through. Well a few months ago I went through his cell. I know its fucked up but I found very disturbing texts. To top it all off it was to my best friend… Well that night after reading them I didn’t tell my fiancé. I played the day off like it was all ok. Than that night i called up my ex friend flipping out. I tolled her to text him saying that she showed me them. Than things got ugly. I asked him about them and he lied. Him not knowing that I read every single one with my own eyes on his phone. He lied and said he didn’t say those things. He still doesn’t know I read them off his phone and i don’t know how to tell him. He said I shouldn’t be going through his shit. Well I am fed up with living this lie everyday. Everytime I see him I just want to tell him… So he can break up with me… DOes it make me a bad person? Should I not of went through his phone? I don’t even know anymore… I don’t even know if I truly love him anymore… What do I do… please someone help me out… FML

Love Hurts

Beth — Thu, 10 Mar 2011 13:54:23 +0000

I’ve been with my boyfriend for almost 2 and1/2 years and its been amazing until a month ago. He stopped telling me everything that went on with him and his friends and then he is just changing. He doesnt want biological children with me when the only thing that I want is biological children with him. Then today he asked me what I would do if he switched into a collage in texas which is atleast 2000 miles away from here. Then he also doesn’t treat me the same he is an ass when were on the phone or about the little things it just sucks because he isn’t the same and i miss how it was.

Just got burned

Katta — Thu, 10 Feb 2011 03:41:05 +0000

Have been dating a guy for a few weeks now, I’v slept at his place a few times and everything’s been great. Today he told me that he like me but he’s not so “in love” anymore, and that he kind of regrets the most of it… We have had awesome sex and I even met his parents. FML!