i’ve grown up needing to be perfect. my mom and grandparents raised me to get A+’s on every report card. they would take my toys/electronics away when i got bad grades. when i got older, i had crushes. all of them rejected me. now im 16 and i never had a boyfriend, im overweight, over 200 pounds, and i get rejected by the people around me almost everyday.
i listen to Simple plan daily cause my life describes it so much. i lost 3 close family/friends in the last 2 years. my greatgrandma (very close like a mom), my greatgrandpa (Also very close) and a lady i knew all my life (friend of my grandma’s). i also have had multiple suicide attempts, for some reason i’m too scared to stab myself. i have very low self esteem, and whenever people laugh at me, i cry and try to cut my wrist with a pencil. i also have a 3 huge moles on my face. kids would yell in my face saying “Chop that Fucking Mole of your Fucking Face” im going to a christian camp in a few days, i get rejected there by most people.. the only respect i get is at night, when i cry, no one cares!
Fuck My Life!!
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I know how u feel…i was overweight..and the snide comments i used to get(I also have low self-esteem..and am too scared to hurt myself.and this makes me feel guilty!!)….now, that ive lost weight..i get asked out…i feel like stabbing the guys who come and say i’m cute and ask me out.Such a bunch of superficial pigs.And now that i’ve lost weight…according to the girls i’m a slut…and everyones such a bunch of hypocrits…all they can do is pass judgements….but no matter what..love yourself..your the only one that matters..don’t give a damn about the other retards…..and good luck for the camp…it’ll all be okay
I know how you feel, for the first 10 years of my schooling I was bullied because I was overweight, wore glasses, From Victoria, always the new kid (Had moved schools 12 Times – I’m in year 12, and I haven’t changed school since year 9). It’s depressing, and I current suffer serviea depression.
i would say embrace the pain make make it apart of u make ur self emotionless make urself dead inside so u wont have ur feeling hurt dont care for what other people say ,people always say im going to commit suicide cause i have a dead look in my eyes people dis on me but idc they can say the hell they want but it wont bother me since someone died in ur life except it everyone dies no matter how u dont want them too
ok heres what you need to do go up to the tallest building in your town and jump off and how the hell are you that stupid that you think you’re going cut your wrists with a pencil bring a razor blade to school for fuck sake they’re very easy to hide and then just remember its down the street not across the road
High school is a joke. I am 24 now, and as cliche as is sounds, believe me, life gets better, just say fuck it to high school, jump through the hoops, and get out asap. Go to college and you will meet people who are able to except you, because really all that intolerance by ass holes is really about ignorance. Stay strong and do something you love, forget all those other jerks.
Honey, you did this first step admiting your problems, now you`ll have to solve them. You`re only 16 and the life has not began yet compeltley, so lose that fuckin weight (i had this problem too, I`m 22 and now I`m happier). Food doesn`t help you, it`s only an isllusion, so fuck it, go on a diet, I know it`s hard, but when you`ll see the results you`ll be happy. and look, some stranger like ME read your story and wanted to give you the virtual support you asked for. Stop with the suicide shit, life`s not for the perfect models only.
stop hearing simple plan and start hearing the smiths or morriseys music